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My therapist, after I (20 year-old woman) confided that my boyfriend had held me in a corner and sexually assaulted me. Made me feel frightened and confused, like I couldn’t trust anyone. (via microaggressions)

This is one of several major reasons why I haven’t sought out therapy for my rape trauma — fear that my therapist will try to tell me I wasn’t really raped.

(via thecurvature)

OMG. And people wonder why victims and survivors of sexual trauma are reluctant to say anything to anyone about it. I don’t blame them one single bit. It’s bad enough that we have to deal with the general public’s bullshit regarding rape and abuse, but WTF are you supposed to do when the people whose JOB it is to help you, the ones who are supposed to know that saying something like this is so not okay, come out the mouth with some victim-blaming mess like this?

I’ve been in therapy off and on for almost ten years now and there are still so many things about my trauma history that I have yet to tell anyone because I’m terrified, not just of how negatively they might (will, in some cases) react, but of how I might react to their reaction. This fear is partially fueled by negative experiences I’ve had in the past and am currently having with mental health and trauma professionals.